Traveling Backwards
In memory of Eli Mandel, author of the poetry collection Dreaming Backwards; this title was the inspiration for the title of this poem.
Taking the train
From Beit Shemesh to Tel Aviv
I regretted having taken a seat facing backwards
But then I thought
That riding backwards on a train
Is the way we live
We mortals
Once we have decided on our destination
Purchased our ticket
Boarded the train
And the train has begun to move
The journey dictates our actions
The tracks drive us forward
Which is true for the gentle landscape
Leading to Tel Aviv
And for the Canadian nights I traversed
Between Toronto and Montreal
With my Dad
Of blessed beloved memory
I remember how
Once when we arrived in the early crunchy morning
In his hometown
Montréal the exquisite
La belle ville
Dans la belle province
We took a taxi
He spoke French
With the taxi driver
In a French-Canadian accent
Unusual for Montreal Jews of his generation
First – that he spoke French altogether
Second – that he did so in a French-Canadian accent
Which lingered into our English conversation
When we got out
A memory suspended in time
Cherished
Frozen like a Toronto icicle on a porch roof
Glistening in the Beersheba sun
Shining like a beacon before the Western Wall
In the Old City of Jerusalem
A memory suspended in my time
Between Toronto and Jerusalem
Like the houses and towns
You pass in a train
You are there beside the fields near Kfar Habad
You are there beside the trees pointing to Tel Aviv
You are there
You can almost touch them
My father is walking alongside me
And I look up at him
He smiles
Then he is gone
The icicle has melted
Like the trees
You passed
So vivid
So near
So distant
Like the distance between my two homes
My Canada and my Israel
Traveling backwards
Is the way we live our moments
The future unknown
The present melting into the past
While the train
Moves inexorably forward
First written on October 30, 2007 between Jerusalem and Tel Aviv
© Copyright 2007 Mark Elliott Shapiro
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